I have big narc tendencies and lemme tell ya that shit would kill me. The only point I am saying this is to harden the fuck up through some niche forum so that ‚public embarrassment’ doesn’t feel like dying anymore.
It kinda worked. But it took a lot of trolling like a lot and multiple bans on any possible social media you can imagine to shape oneself into someone more resistant to words.
First gain resistance by learning to say whatever shit is on your tongue and feel nothing about consequences and then come back to reason and you feel like unlocking superpower. Finally not shaped by others but being more of a rock staying solid and unaffected by external factors whatever happens.
The hardest battles are those we fight with ourselves
It’s a bit of tomfoolery to be honest. I have no idea what I written here but it sounds like ramblings of a lunatic the logic of who made some perverse sense few hours ago but it is too emphemeral to understand after some time passes.
I am method acting comments on lemmy for some reason, looking to see what happens I guess
The thing is I could craft a perfect comment that would be likeable but what would that give me other than empty dopamine?
It’s far more interesting to go against this desire of validation and see what happens.
Can we truly free ourselves from the need to conform? Is it possible?
Nothing I have written recently was written to please an audience. Maybe I have done too much to the other side now, to irritate the audience but that’s how you seek those ways.
All that effort to stop audience in defining who you are and seek authenticity. To stop “being perceived” as the prime factor in “being”
I have big narc tendencies and lemme tell ya that shit would kill me. The only point I am saying this is to harden the fuck up through some niche forum so that ‚public embarrassment’ doesn’t feel like dying anymore.
It kinda worked. But it took a lot of trolling like a lot and multiple bans on any possible social media you can imagine to shape oneself into someone more resistant to words.
First gain resistance by learning to say whatever shit is on your tongue and feel nothing about consequences and then come back to reason and you feel like unlocking superpower. Finally not shaped by others but being more of a rock staying solid and unaffected by external factors whatever happens.
The hardest battles are those we fight with ourselves
I know you’re getting down votes, but I appreciate your honesty and willingness to do some introspection. Good on ya.
It’s a bit of tomfoolery to be honest. I have no idea what I written here but it sounds like ramblings of a lunatic the logic of who made some perverse sense few hours ago but it is too emphemeral to understand after some time passes.
I am method acting comments on lemmy for some reason, looking to see what happens I guess
The thing is I could craft a perfect comment that would be likeable but what would that give me other than empty dopamine?
It’s far more interesting to go against this desire of validation and see what happens.
Can we truly free ourselves from the need to conform? Is it possible?
Nothing I have written recently was written to please an audience. Maybe I have done too much to the other side now, to irritate the audience but that’s how you seek those ways.
All that effort to stop audience in defining who you are and seek authenticity. To stop “being perceived” as the prime factor in “being”